Sunday, January 4, 2009

update- January 4th

It's hard to keep my cool when i see you with her
cause i really wish that you were right here with me.

I really want to call you
but i know that it's not right
I probably shouldn't tell you.
That i dreamt of you last night

Sometimes you have to learn to let go
to find out if there's anything worth holding onto

It just comes down to two things;
he'll either realize you're not worth is
or you'll realize he isn't

I hope you realize, you'll never find a girl
who cares about you more than i do

I wish i was with you
instead of just wishing for 

no matter how much you love someone,
they just can't love you the way you love them
people will break your heart, and sometimes
you gotta move on and be okay with that

love doesn't walk away; people do

and thats what you get.
when you let your heart win

rester avec moi a jamai
[stay with me forever]

I'm in like with you :]

now i see just who you are
& I'm kinda glad that you
broke my heart

to the world; you may be one person
but to one person; you may be the world

don't be reckless with other peoples hearts
don't put up with those who are reckless with yours

don't waste your time on jealousy
sometimes you're ahead;
sometimes you're behind;
the race is long, and in the end;
its only with yourself

I'm not going to stress over you anymore
it isn't worth it
i tried to work sometimes out
but you ignored it
I'm not trying to say i don't want you
because i defineatly do
all I'm saying is;
I'm done chasing after you

letting go shouldn't be so hard
but loving you tore me apart

i wish i knew how to fall out of love

don't let the world tell you who you are
you tell the world


i want to tell you what I'm feeling but i don't know where to start
i want to tell you something but I'm afraid you'll break my heart
why should something so easy, be so hard to do
So I'm just gonna tell you, I'm still in love with you

Don't ever give up, if you still want to try
don't ever wipe your tears, if you still want to cry
don't ever settle for an answer, if you still wanna know
don't ever say you don't love him, if you can't let him go

sometimes, no matter how much faith we have,
we loose people. but you never forget them,
and sometimes, it's those memories that
give us the strength to go on

I'll tear down the stars and I'll 
give them do you, They're
not as pretty as your eyes
but i guess it will have to do.

There's always going to be those
awkward moments when we're
around each other and remember
how things used to be.

you hug him goodbye like it's nothing... while all
you want to do is hold on forever. But you let go,
smile & walk away. Then cry all the way home because
you know it will never be the sam. Because try as you
might, you can't make someone love you. Sometimes
you have to let them be free... & letting go,
that is when love hurts the most.

She knows everything about him,
& he cant even tell what color her eyes are

you know, no matter what happens, he will always mean the world to me.
no matter how bad he hurts me, i will always forgive him.
no matter how much he makes me cry, i will always go back.
no matter how much he breaks my heart, i will always love him.
but i have to let go. i don't deserve the pain anymore & he doesn't
deserve me

Please don't act like you care,  You don't care.
I know you don't. You've watched me destroy myself
too long now. If you really cared, you would have 
tried to stop it by now

If one day, I start to matter,
please let me know

he's the boy i want;
I'm just not the girl he wants

I want to cry, really i do
but i guess i just don't want
to give you the satisfaction of 
knowing you hurt me again

I don't know what to say to you; It seems as though
you're not what i expected. I still love you with all
my heart. even though we are so far apart. I'm running
out of things i should do, & i don't know if its the right thing
i should do. I try hardest to impress you. but is that enough
to win you over? My feelings for you grow strong; and I'm
scared that they'll never go away; that you have scarred me
forever; never giving it a change to heal.

forgive? sounds good.
forget? I'm not sure i could

You can only push a girl away for so long before she
walks out of your life on her own. Be careful and make sure
this is what you want. Because once she turns around..
she isn't coming back

forget the risk & take the fall.
if its what you want. its worth it all

a million words won't bring you back:
i know because i've tried
neither will a million tears:
i know because i've tried

Wherever you are, i hope that
you're happy tonight. and maybe
you found someone to love you
right. I'm desperate to say now i
need you more than ever. but
all i could say was goodnight.

There's always gonna be
those two people in your life
that you'll never forget
your first love... * the first
to break your heart.
I'll remember you as both.

if you ever begin to miss me.
just remember you let me go

Your better than him

im filling the empty spaces
where you left your mark

you change for one of two reasons;
either you learn enough you want to.
or you've been hurt enough you have to.

just once i want to be hard to leave.
i want someone to stay up all night
thinking only of me

and one day you'll fall down, and there
won't be anyone to pick you up again
but i guess i just don't want

Remember i will be there
when you life goes hectic and wrong
I'm always here to help you
I've been here all along

if you love someone, tell them
because hearts are often broke
by words that are left unspoken


everyday that we don't speak is
another day i don't need you
and as i slowly stop missing
you, i realize that you weren't
that important to me anyways.


they'll pass each other in the halls
and they'll both exchange glances
but don't speak to each other cause
they're both afraid of taking chances

you're not even mind
& i'm scared to loose you

love leaves a memory no one can steal
but it also leaves a broke heart no one can heal

but as i stood watching her
i realized how truly hard is was
to see someone you love change
right before your eyes

I'm find. i mean. not that I'm over it
but little by little. its getting easier
to pretend im okay. which means
okay might be right around the corner

so heres to giving up.
because it's the fastest
road to healing, even if it
isn't exactly the smartest

love is worth fighting for but not
if you're the only one fighting

maybe it's the only way we can finally
stand on our own. you know, to hurt each
other so much that we have no choice but
to let go, maybe otherwise we never would

the sad thing is, you can still
love someone, but be completely
wrong for them

just because i finally got over you,
doesn't mean there aren't day when
it all just comes rushing back

it's the hardest thing i'll ever have to do
to turn around and walk away
pretending i don't love you

why is it that when i'm finally getting
over you, you give me a reason not to.

i was a dreamer before you
went and let me down

and in the end i might be smiling;
but that doesn't mean i'm okay

if you don't understand my silence,
you wouldn't understand my words

you're going to come across people in you 
live who will say all the right words at all the
right times. But in the end, it's always their
actions you should judge then by. It's actions,
not words, that matter

You've had a lifetime to process
your feelings for me, & I can't
spend forever hoping that you
maybe might throw a general
glance in my direction

Maybe things can only get worse
before they can get better

I tell you i don't want to talk to you,
that i need a break, which is true, but i don't
know how long i can last without you. sure, you've
changed but i miss the old you. though
you have moved on, and found a girl
that you love, there is some reason
I am willing to fight for you, to fight
to remember the way things used to be

i got lost in your eyes
and believed every
single word you said

it's not really love
until it leaves a bruise

goodbye my almost lover

i guess we're left to be friends
after i  tried so long and hard
to work something out;
i guess that love for you

love is like a role that we play

love you was just find
until i make it that easy
to walk right in and out
of my life

i couldn't forve you to love me
and i couldn't force her to not
love you. You both fell for each
other so quickly and i couldn't
grasp it. I;m forced to leave it
at us being friends. again

in the end, we all end up being
the people we swore we would never be

i have left you and I'm not 
turning back